Richard Jones: "If I Should Die"
Richard Jones is the director of the Creative Writing Program at DePaul University, as well as the author of five books of poetry. The most recent is The Blessing, published by Copper Canyon Press.
If I Should Die
If I should die this afternoon
who will take care of my dog?
Who will let her out this evening
and walk her twice around the block,
letting her stop now and then to sniff
an especially delicious turd
some other dog has left behind
just for her, a gift
hidden among leaves and tall grass
that she discovers
like a little girl at an Easter egg hunt?
Like a little girl, she needs someone to feed her.
Who will fill her red bowl with the bone-shaped feed
that smells of old socks, her favorite fragrance,
lovely aroma, gourmet that she is?
And who will howl with her at the moon at midnight
in the backyard as I do? Who will get down
on all fours, snarling by the back gate
at ghosts and thieves?
Who will bury his nose in snow or dirt or mud?
Who will walk in circles, curl on the old pillow,
dream the dream of the dog-
as I do, night after night,
lying on my back, my snout and whiskers twitching,
my eyes opening and closing,
my paws trembling, my legs shuttling back and forth?
Dreaming like a dog,
I chase whatever it is I want
but never catch in life,
though, in my dreams, like a dog, I do-
I catch it and bite down hard;
it can’t get away;
I’m devouring it now, whatever it is,
whatever it was I wanted
all my life
and begged for
like a dog.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Richard Jones’s most recent book of poems is Avalon (Green Linden Press, 2020). His many poetry collections include Stranger on Earth and The Blessing (both from Copper Canyon Press). A new book, Paris, is forthcoming from Tebot Bach in 2021. Editor since 1980 of the literary journal Poetry East, he curates its many anthologies, such as Origins, The Last Believer in Words, and Bliss. In 2020 he published Poetry East 100, a 40-year retrospective of poems and paintings.
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