Peter Neil Carroll: Two Poems
Selected by Alexis Rhone Fancher, Poetry Editor
Driving through blue-collar suburbs, I see
a thumb shoot up, brake fast, taking her in—
light hair, tight jeans, lots of mascara.
Stop here, she orders in half-a-mile, pointing
to a solitary Chevy parked at an grimy curb.
Someone, she claims, has stolen her purse.
Doors unlocked, I search for the keys, find
none. The trunk is sealed. Neither locksmith
nor a felon, I can’t retrieve her stuff.
Though helpless, she’s not distraught, rather
calmly asks if I’d drive her home. A poker term
comes to mind: in for a nickel, in for a dime,
but first she reaches into the back seat, saying
you might as well take it, offers my reward—
a gallon container of peanut oil. Can I refuse?
Entering the city, I break silence, ask her
what she does. Dancer. And I guess that’s why
she wears so much makeup. Where, I wonder.
She names a well-known strip club, tourist bait.
I’m stuck for a response, decide not to question
her dance style, but inquire about the clientele.
Mostly married guys, she says, lonely guys, losers.
I’m surprised. My thoughts turn to my lucky self.
Just lookers, she adds. They’re not allowed to touch.
Here, she announces, in front of a redbrick row house
on a tree-lined street, My halfway house—and leaves
me to ponder what I’ll do with so much peanut oil.
The Old Flame
Portland’s gray streets feel midwestern, nestled
under cloud and drizzle, small saloons the best
havens from the wet, where my pal plays piano.
He’s my excuse for coming, but it’s Valentines,
an old flame I hope to find is on my mind. She
sells natural food in a town that begins with The.
February 14, perfect day to find women in bars,
I hadn’t expected a marathon: Cassidy’s, Metro,
Satyricon, Aldo’s, Ruby Hearts and more.
We do them all. At Bogart’s club, Dave meets
a lady friend who knows all about the The place,
offers to guide our expedition to the grocery.
In the morning, we head east, past Multnomah Falls,
Horsetail, Bridal Veil and not much further to bingo!
a road sign, The Dalles, with a scruffy auto row
and a downtown grocery selling brown rice, tofu,
an alphabet of vitamin pills. I step inside, pause
to share a long stare across the counter, then a hug.
Her freckles have faded, her hair a shade darker,
she’s pregnant. Right now, she’s holding a mop,
says one of her goats has just peed on the floor.
A Midwest farm girl, she grew up on horses; me,
I grew up knowing beans about oats and goats,
sheep and manure, not to mention quinoa and kale.
Herbal tea she pours, a nervous look in her eyes,
not thrilled to see me. It wasn’t meant to be, she says,
though we can still look at each other for hours.
Photo credit: Jeannette Ferrary
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Peter Neil Carroll is currently Poetry Moderator of Portside.org. His sixth collection of poetry, Something is Bound to Break (Main Street Rag), was published in 2019. Earlier titles include, An Elegy for Lovers; The Truth Lies on Earth; and A Child Turns Back to Wave which won the Prize Americana.