I think there are universes scattered across time,
where you have pink hair and I have green eyes,
star crossed universes where what you and I had
never turned into something not worth having anymore.
And I can’t stop thinking about it,
I drive myself crazy thinking about it,
how did I manage to land here of all pages
and not in a different place at a different pace?
Do you look at the dreams I forgot to take with me?
or do you think I’m trying so incredibly hard
to break through the lovesick state you left me in?
In my head you think back, and then you know all these things.
(in my head you always know
like a magician of sorts, like someone who listens
like someone who gets haunted and chased
by how much of me they can’t erase)
I’ll look at the portrait I made of you,
like all things that I can’t always keep close,
I will keep remembering you just as you are.
You double-sided dream wrecker star.
Shine and smile as you do, say you’re willing to keep me close
on a locket, by your side, all over your life,
but my colors don’t fit any more on your canvases
it was time to decide, a battle or a lesson of life.
Think, think, think
climb the walls thinking about me
wish I didn’t have to leave you alone, wish that you didn’t break my heart
until my only choices were to run away or to fall apart.
Listen to that song I like, you certainly didn’t mean to put it on ,
and play it high until the walls shake and nearly crumb.
(on purpose this time, and according to how we fell)
With all you’ve got, mourn what could’ve been
As usual my words are never more than that,
more than things that don’t come true and things I wish you’d do
still, I wish for you to keep every single drop of love
that I ever made you feel.