You lit a fire beneath me
I watched as gas slowly filled the room
It suffocated me!
But when I cried out: “I’m burning”
Your world kept on turning.
Is that what you want to hear?
I don’t know anymore because no matter how much I apologize
You fill my head with lies.
You tell me it’s all my fault.
I tell you I have PTSD so bad I can’t sleep–
You tell me to grow up.
That my life is perfect so stop complaining, I’m privileged so my pain
Is only a game.
You dragged me through Hell.
When I told you it was too hot
You told me it didn’t matter because you had been shot.
I frantically tried to stop the bleeding,
I covered your wounds with my hands and gave you my heart.
While my back was turned,
You tore me apart.
And told me that even though you held the lighter,
I was the one who caught us on fire.
So I’m sorry I pulled away
But after how you ignored my pain,
The abuse you put me through–
And, yes, it was abuse
Not one with a physical scar but deep wounds that won’t heal,
Leaving you was the bravest thing I have ever done.
After so many battles…
I have finally won.