Rebecca Aronson: Three Poems
Selected by Mish Murphy, Assistant Poetry Editor
It was my mother who noticed
when his breathing stopped.
I was thinking of the hummingbirds
we had watched the year before, their throats
flashing among the feeders, how their commotion
woke my pulse. Now my mother
exited the bubble of her dementia
to say, as she had always done, the crucial thing.
The three of us had lingered on the porch, a bouquet
of small wings shimmering around us.
In the corridor where we waited while the nurses
did their work, my mother had already retreated
to other worries. In his last minutes
my father must have heard the flurry of our talk,
light laughter, his family enduring. Maybe
he was assured that he could leave.
Maybe the leaving wasn’t painful.
He slipped from breath to death
so quietly. When we arrived
at the place where the hummingbirds were,
we didn’t want to see our rooms. We wanted nothing
but to stay in the presence of all that urgency
while we held as still as we could.
He was never beautiful
but his mind was bright and quick and loud.
The hummingbirds, alerted by a signal
we couldn’t know, ceased their whirring and were gone.
My Mother Disapproves
of afternoon languor, lying on couches,
textured wallpaper. Hammocks; guest rooms
in which the fold-out bed is left unfolded.
Curtains left closed past eight or open
past dark. Matinees, drive-ins, daytime television.
Snacking, sweet cocktails, state fairs. Corn dogs, hotdogs, dogs,
any talk of god. Dive bars. Motorcycles, mini-skirts,
pleather. Cartoons, line dancing. Most music
composed past the eighteenth century. Day-drinking, playing hooky, ganja,
and boy bands. Camping. Car trips, RVs, Christmas lights.
Orange soda. Messy rooms. Spell check, tube tops. Arrows
drawn through a heart or shot
at a bullseye.
Drama, melodrama, melancholy, snakes. Cigarettes,
green cars, mistletoe, skinny-dipping. A smoky eye,
tight pants, my uncombed hair,
the fleshy, unbound hours of my every day and night.
My bones are hollow. I dream of flight.
In dreams I am not afraid
to look down. You are my uncle
a thousand times removed. There‘s a family resemblance,
they say, as I am aging my way to ground.
Someday maybe I’ll be a stump
the other birds pause to rest on.
What is finer than to be? Not was. Not was.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Rebecca Aronson is the author of Anchor, forthcoming from Orison Books in 2022, Ghost Child of the Atalanta Bloom, winner of the 2016 Orison Books poetry prize and winner of the 2019 Margaret Randall Book Award from the Albuquerque Museum Foundation, and Creature, Creature, winner of the Main-Traveled Roads Poetry Prize (2007). She has been a recipient of a Prairie Schooner Strousse Award, the Loft’s Speakeasy Poetry Prize, and a Tennessee Williams Scholarship to Sewanee. She is co-founder and host of Bad Mouth, a series of words and music. Her website is rebeccaaronsonpoetry.com.
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