Sally Rosen Kindred: Three Poems
Selected by Alexis Rhone Fancher, Poetry Editor
Two hours after my father left for good with his wet hair lamp-gleam black and his zippered bag, my mother pulsed through the house, turning off all the lights. I followed her. Then sat on the rug in the dark watching smoke twist up from her cigarette and drop small stars to burn into her blouse, black with blue roses. I did not yet believe in the kitchen to come, in bottles that lit and littered the air, tilting here from the future— that God could lay her down, years, on that couch. I looked up at her. I touched the rug’s braid. Behind her head: four cold windows. Beyond them, outside, in grass moon-wet with night, a ghost-Wolf guarded the yard. In memory She moves now out from the alders and skirts the silver swings. Her tufts bristle in the grass. We had called Her name: snap of the switch on the glass-white globe, turn of the lamp’s brass key. With our breath and fingers. Without that dark Wolf could never have found us. She could not have come for me. Would not have felt safe. My mother was sagging already, losing stars, buckling under her story. Pain found me a wolf’s ghost body: gave me Never and fur I dreamed, I hid, I held, I would not tell.
Coda: The Night Glass
When I was ten she set a glass of wine on the table.
My mother knew to praise, and the paints for night:
currant, rookwood, garnet.
Stirred in the drift. Shade of a hood.
Her thirst unsleeved in parts: a stem first, a mouth.
My mother’s lips, though, were a blue envelope.
A glued wing, a flap, could keep her sleep’s secrets.
Late at night the glass would crack.
Its whistle split shingles, let the sky inside.
She made it. Her fear named the parts.
Night sky: a stem. Night sky: a mouth.
She could drown a hyacinth.
She could thread a wolf through the moon.
When I was ten, a glass of wine.
Now I howl when it spills over.
I stain when it slips through.
She’ll say crimson. No, invention. Call the red dress my dream.
I wake hard, a daughter. I break back into my skin.
The angel of the black bowl sets it on the table.
The girl sits down. She will not eat.
She wears a dress the color of her mother’s hunger.
She does not believe in breakfast, dreams
the eggs’ songs dead in their shells.
The room won’t be her balloon, regretting the sky.
The clock turns its face away.
The chandelier above her kicks light into the past,
that time when she knew how to be born.
The bowl won’t be her cradle.
She looks into the black bowl and sees a vicious wing.
She looks into the black bowl and sparrows are folding their wet brown papers.
She looks in and forgets there are
ways to eat and be a breath, a daughter.
The girl bows her head for a blessing.
Inside the black bowl it begins to snow.
Acknowledgements: “First Night” first appeared in Cave Wall, “Coda: The Night Glass” first appeared in Raleigh Review, and “Morning” first appeared in Massachusetts Review.
Photo credit: Berni Carrieri
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Sally Rosen Kindred’s third poetry collection is Where the Wolf, winner of the 2020 Diode Book Prize (Diode Editions, 2021). Her previous books are Book of Asters and No Eden, and three chapbooks, including Says the Forest to the Girl (Porkbelly Press, 2018). She has received two fellowships from the Maryland State Arts Council, and her poems have appeared in The Gettysburg Review, Shenandoah, Kenyon Review Online, and elsewhere. She teaches writing online for Johns Hopkins CTY and, this fall, for The Poetry Barn.